for u to know, for me to rid

we say "the more u do, the more u get used to"....somewhat.... it works quite the opposite for me. apparantly, the more i fly, the more jittery i get abt landing. the drop freaks me out. last tuesday's landing at tullamarine was for once an un-noticeable one. BUT that was jus one that went okay. all other times, i had to hold tight to the arm rests, teeth clenching and my face frozen. whoever fly with me in future, pleasssse look away or DONT EVER LOOK AT ME. i look worse than i had no makeup on. ha! exaggeration. i look like tis reluctant girl who got dragged up on a pirate ship.....that scaredy cat look.....(pirate ship...as in the amusement park ride, viking...hey, wait a sec.....how on earth is it suppose to be AMUSEment??? more like amusement for the spectators u reckon?!!!). if you did travel alongside me recently, i'm sorry i looked aloof. i didnt mean it. i was jus too focused on doing my relaxing technique #14.