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[we always say look on the bright side of things. yeah..yeah... that is because we're standing on the sick side so the only thing we see right in front is the bright side, isnt it?!?! when will we be on the bright side??? decision making is turning into tis horrific thing i wanna avoid. why??? because i jus dont know what to do anymore. to turn left or to turn right, to go straight or to make an u-turn. i know nobody likes making u-turns in life but if it has to be, it has to be, right? getting back to where u started does not neccesary mean a bad thing. tis, i'm really sure.

why do i enjoy staying in australia so much? because i can rot and decompose here and nobody will come and kah-jiao me. if i decide to die and rot in singapore, judgemental pple or pple who has nothing better to do (or who already is so busy) will come poking at my flesh and spit some nonsensical rubbish at my almost decomposed body. tis is how i perceive singapore. very sad huh?!

i dont mean to write such a post, so full of angst but i cant help it. i quit. i quit having to be strong. i had enough. God please help me.

for 2 consecutive nights, i had tis sudden and severe pain in my abdomen right after dinner. and then i'll spend all of my time in the bathroom. will see if it happen again tonite and tomorrow nite and so forth. it might be time to put my medicare card to good use.

after ranting, i feel much better. okok, must look on the bright side of things.

enough said. now, time for some inspirational music.]