swissroll in a bottle

i found myself at eastgardens again. i was there jus 2 days ago. well, today, i was on a mission. i went for an informal interview at kmart for a nightfiller position. as the name suggests, i'll work at night, after store hours. basically, what i do is unload and organize pellets of merchandise onto the sales floor then arrange them onto the shelves. at least something to do to tide me over before the actual job comes. i'm feeling guilty as i speak cos i havent been looking for jobs actively. i've notified my agents of my preference for clinical research (clinical trials to be specific) openings but of late, i'm not so sure anymore. i dont know what i want. how to follow-up with a call to my agent when i dont know what i want. make sense? besides, i'm bothered by how close-minded one of my agents is abt temporary visa. dont get me wrong, she's nice to me still. the idea i get from talking to her is that she prefers matching jobs to PRs. i reckon PRs offer more security and reliability unlike me who will be kicked out of australia anytime should my PR application fails. sigh. so far, the agents i deal with seem to only know and accept PR but not the rest of the visa types while my classmates (the ang mohs) havent even heard of PR. OMG. for now, while i think of a way to educate them abt my visa type (that is, i can stay up to 2 years), i've to begin thinking abt what i want.

these are exactly the times i'd hesitate abt speaking my inner thoughts and what's bothering me, be it face to face with someone or over my blog. i'm jus not used to being so open abt my feelings. a friend, from primary sch, used to tell my ma (when ma asked her what was bothering me. yep, my ma has to ask my friend what was wrong with her own daughter) that i'm fond of bottling up and not voicing out my problems. perhaps i'm afraid of being seen as being weak or that i'm a loser. or possibly, thats jus me, settling my problems the quiet way. many friends think i'm chatty and possibly approachable, thus often seek a confidante in me. they've no idea i used that chattiness to camouflage myself. i like it that they talk and tell me abt themselves cos that means i dont have to reveal what's bothering me. i'm learning, learning to open up, to unravel myself. in fact, tis post is a good start. i do hope blogging will be an opportunity for me to discover myself and be more upfront with my thoughts and voice.


how can i miss a trip to the pet shop when i'm at eastgardens?! i know i've posted more than enough pics of them but i've to show u tis one i took today. its so cute neh. dont bluff u. u see for yourself. so cute right?????? see him sleep, i feel like sleeping too.



other half and i had laksa and fried hokkien mee for lunch. where, where? i can hear u asking. it is tis newly opened singapore restaurant jus downstairs our place, called straits kitchen. looking at the menu, u know the owner is truly singaporean. ngoh hiang, bak kut teh, char kway teow, hainanese chicken rice, kaya toast, ice milo dinosaur (i dont know tis but other half said its ice milo with alot of the milo powder). u can hear singlish within the restaurant, esp the customers. at an instant, it felt like being back in singapore. the laksa looked and smelled good but didnt quite live up to it. and the hokkien mee is nothing like back home. it tasted like any stir fry egg noodles, thats why we didnt bother taking a pic of it. though the two dishes were not up to our expectations, we'll go back again. to try the ngoh hiang, hay bee hiam sandwiches and ice milo dinosaur.




before i end today's entry, here are some facts i gathered from watching oprah tis afternoon. i thought we chinese are the disgusting ones eating fermented bean curd, chicken feet, pigs' ears/ tongues but the icelanders sure beat us to it. they savor sour lamb's testicles & rotten shark!!!! *shudder* singapore was also featured.... for the numerous fines, ban of chewing gum, women's obsession with padded bras and sprouting slimming salons. i think so too. judging from 8days and i-weekly my ma brought from singapore, slimming salons really seem to be on the rise... marie france (featuring christy chung), expression, mary chia (ivy lee as spokesperson), royal body perfect (singapore idol's olinda cho), cenosis, slimfit (lynn poh) and i'm sure many more. one more fact before i sign off. there're 7 adverts on slimming salons in i-weekly compared to jus 1 advert in 8days (the 2 copies randomly choosen). now, what does that imply?