bear with me

please fricking stop telling me that i grew up in singapore and there's nothing abt having to get used to. u're so wrong. go tell all the universities in australia (and probably US & UK too) that they're wrong in organizing returning home counselling program for overseas students returning home. go tell them that the students were born and raised in their home countries and there's no such thing as not getting used to.

the asian culture do not believe in showing and discussing emotions openly. we like to deny certain feelings in us for fear of being perceived as weak or have lost credibility or something else which i dont know. whereas the western culture recognizes, understands, and embraces that feeling and do something abt it, such as having the returning home counselling. having stayed and worked here has made me think very differently abt living the life we all say is short. so i thank the Lord for tis experience. with regards to staying or leaving, i've done what i could and now it is His calling.

the decision will be made based on whats most appropriate for us as well as our families. sometimes, such decisions can only benefit one person as it seems like it but it is not so. be it in sydney or singapore, i know other half and i sure make the best out of it and shine. life is short and we'll both live it to the fullest. how many times have we heard and uttered that?

so now, i jus need time to come to terms with the decision (if we're leaving. which we'll officially make by friday or saturday or who knows earlier). gimme time. lemme rant. send me jokes or funny pics for a good laugh. for those of u who are sick of hearing me talking abt it again and again, come back here next week or maybe never.