the overdue post

shucks, i dont know where to start. i've pics on 5 of 6 and 6 of 6 to post and things i wanna say and thoughts i wanna put across but they're now all jumbled up. i suppose i'll write what comes to my mind now.

the past week has been hell lots of adjustment to do. both good and bad.

the weather (sauna type sweating when i eat, when i shop, when i shit, when i sleep, when i whatever. basically i perspire round the clock. when i'm out and when i'm in. i feel like thai sticky rice all the time. i warn anyone who comes near me. u'll stick to me like super glue. boohoo. i'm still trying to climatise okay. from abt 10-20oC to 30oC leh. what do u think? even though mentally i so much want to adjust, physically, my body needs time u know),

the culture (there's hardly any customer service left huh? and also pushy commuters)

the food (too spoilt for choice. tis is the only good adjustment to make :))

the crowds (weekend shopping is more like a rubbing shoulders encounter)

bitchy relatives (ironically they turned out to be the men. is it andropause, mid life crisis or what?)

at one many points of time, i questioned our my decision of moving back to singapore. why did we come back? so what if OH's job offer was irresistable? is the lifestyle in singapore what we're after? do we wanna raise our kids in sucha compeititve environment where emphasis is not placed on learning and seeking knowledge per se but comparing grades among your peers? having said that, singapore is not all that bad, and australia is definitely not a paradise. i know ultimately, how i wanna live my life lies in my hands. i reckon i'll have to make do with what i've and to crave the best out of it (as if i can change the weather/ culture, lessen the crowds and tame bitchy relatives. bleargh! the devil is toying with my mind again). gosh, very typical and cliche of me to say that but what to do, that's life.

i experienced a health scare on thursday. my dad actually. he complained of chest pain and went to see the family doc. the doc then wrote a referral letter for him to visit A&E immediately. for a ECG i guess. after much persuasion from my brother and myself, my dad still insist on seeing his trusty chinese sinseh. yeah right, a second opinion from a sinseh. what crap! hey, though i study western medicine, i do believe in chinese medicine too. i'm a true testimony of chinese medicine by the way. my gastric problem was cured after many many bowls of blackish stinky brewed soups. as u can imagine, i was furious, and scared too. okay, the fury stemmed from worry and helplessness. knowing well of the complications and consequences of a potential stroke happening to my dad who is hypertensive, and sitting ard not being able to convince him to the hospital, it was truly a moment of apprehension. i dont know if i've done right to allow him see the chinese sinseh and not insisting on him getting a ECG done. in any case, i'm finding out ECG procedures at various health premises. will book an appointment for him (if i can convince him to go). tis is my only comfort abt being back here, that is, to take care of my parents.

56k modem connected at 28-32kbps sucks big time. to make matter worse, my lappy has jus 64mb RAM. getting connected is no big hooha but to load a webpage or to surf ard is one major put off. now u know why i havent been online or updating my blog. and yes, u reading tis post is very hard to come by for i've to go through loads of loads of loads of trouble to post it. its out of the question for me to upload pics (i havent really try it though :P). but i'm lucky, times like these wont last long (fingers crossed!). my 2 IT consultants (OH & yeo) are working very hard in getting my lappy up and running so that i can surf/ blog/ blogsurf with ease, without it hanging on me. m i hinting them to hurry up? :P not at all. i'm more than grateful for their time and efforts. in fact i'm getting quite used to not going online eversince i'm back. then again, i do not mind a decent lappy i can work on and a broadband connection that allows no fuss surfing. :)

till my lappy is up and running like clockwork, i wont be posting much (as far as i'd like to). my utmost apologies!